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"This is, uh. It's Jay. Leave a message, and I'll try to get back to you."

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[burntvideocassette]

yeah

[It's always tough to talk about Alex. He sees the parallels there, the way their choices line up against each other, and he wants to close his eyes.]

but you're still alive
and i'm
whatever i am
and we're here
whatever that counts for

[postictal]

you're alive
just not the way you used to be


i guess i'm sorry about that too
not sure i ever told you that

[burntvideocassette]

[Alive, just not the way he used to be.]

[Undead until this place sees fit to send him back.]

[He doesn't want to think about it. He's not thinking about it. Not right now.]

[Right now, they're having some weird heart-to-heart, so he might as well just keep it going. Funny how things go easier when you're telling the truth by choice.]

wasn't your fault
i went looking for alex
that's on me
and i guess i'm sorry for running off into the woods by myself like a jackass
and for the knife
and that stuff

[He feels like he's got to qualify that last bit. They're probably never gonna mention this again, so he goes for it.]

feels weird apologizing for the knife
i remember it happening and i remember being really pissed off but i don't remember why it made sense to me back then
not sure it ever made sense

[postictal]

i think it makes sense in the moment for everyone
it made sense for alex to do what he did

he was just being used the way the rest of us were


i guess
don't take it too hard

[You're just as fallible as the rest of them, Jay.]

[burntvideocassette]

[He wants to say he wasn't being used, but that's pretty tough to argue after all the stuff the event dragged out of him.]

[Tim says not to take it too hard. Easy for him to say.]

[Jay's just exhausted.]

i guess

[It's a while before he finishes the message.]

thanks

[postictal]

for what

[What has he done except...making a fucking nuisance of himself and dig up old wounds?]

[burntvideocassette]

i dunno
sticking around i guess
agreeing to the agreement thing

[postictal]

yeah well we'll see how that plays out
wonderland seems to like fucking that kind of thing up

[Tim seems to be good at fucking that kind of thing up.]

[burntvideocassette]

great