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Character Information
Name: Jay Merrick
Series: Marble Hornets
Appearance: He doesn't appear on camera often, but when he does, he looks like this.
Jay Merrick is a pale, scrawny guy on the tall end of five-foot-something. He walks with the slight stoop and the dark eye-bags of a man who has spent the better part of the past four years hunched over his laptop, squinting at blurry camcorder footage instead of getting a decent night's rest.
On the topic of the camcorder, it's practically glued to his hand. Jay tries to record everything he sees, regardless of convenience or common decency.
He speaks with an audible Alabama drawl; his accent may not be thick, but it's definitely there.
His body language isn't necessarily what you'd expect from a man who's spent the past four years fearing for his life; the arm that isn't busy carrying the camera hangs loose at his side, and his eyes don't always focus on what's in front of him. However, Jay is tightly wound; he's constantly looking over his shoulder, and when he's not stumbling over his words, his speech is clipped, like he's talking through a clenched jaw.
Jay dresses for comfort, and it's unlikely he's gotten any new clothes since his apartment burned down three years prior (save for anything he managed to steal from Tim Wright's luggage when they briefly worked together). He favors a thin, moth-eaten brown hoodie and a worn cadet cap, and he tends to dress in warm colors - reds and browns, mostly.
Age: 27-28
Canon Point: The footage uncovered from Jay's computer in Entry #82
Canon History: Jay's page on the Marble Hornets wiki
Jay is the point-of-view character of Marble Hornets, though it could be argued that he's not necessarily the protagonist.
Back in the summer of 2006, he worked as the script supervisor for his friend Alex Kralie's incompetent but well-meaning student film. Unfortunately, progress on this incompetent but well-meaning student film was interrupted by the Operator, a faceless eldritch horror in a shape roughly approximating a very tall businessman. By the end of that summer, Alex Kralie announced his decision to quit the project and transfer to another school, and Jay offered to take the tapes.
Jay's memories of the Operator had been erased.
Alex had murdered half the cast. The other half he had tried to murder.
Jay didn't remember that part, either.
Three years later, Jay started looking through the old tapes, and he realized two things: he hadn't heard from Alex Kralie since 2006, and there was a strange man in the background of some of the shots.
He did what any reasonable person would do and asked the SomethingAwful forums if they wanted to see any of the footage.
From there, he created a YouTube account to archive any unusual footage he saw, as well as a Twitter account to communicate with his viewers, and his investigation of the old tapes quickly turned into an investigation of the Operator and Alex Kralie's disappearance.
He tracked Alex to his friend's abandoned house, but all he found was evidence that somebody had been living in the closet, some surreal, incomprehensible architecture, and the Operator. He woke up in his car the next morning, the previous day's memories wiped, presumably due to his exposure to the Operator. All he had was the footage on the camera.
He kept recording. He didn't want to forget anything else.
Not long after, his apartment burned down, and he was forced to start living in hotels and out of his car.
The Operator then erased another seven months of his memory, during which he met up with Alex, inadvertently led him to another witness, and nearly got both himself and the other witness killed when Alex pulled a gun on them both.
Fortunately, he had the camera, so he could watch the missing months second-hand.
Unfortunately, he and the other witness, Jessica, were attacked shortly afterward. Jay managed to escape, but Jessica went missing.
In his attempts to find her, Jay found Tim Wright instead, another former cast member of Alex Kralie's student film. After a rocky start--i.e. Jay lying to Tim about the real purpose of his investigation and Tim giving Jay a black eye--the two joined forces to track down Alex and Jessica.
It turned out that Tim knew more about the Operator than he let on; he had been stalked and tormented by it since he was a child, and he blamed himself for inadvertently introducing it to his friends back in 2006. Jay stuck around, and the two started hotel-hopping as they continued the investigation.
They managed to break into Alex's old house, and while they didn't find much evidence, they did find the Operator. Tim managed to withstand the Operator's attack, but Jay wasn't so lucky; he was "out of it" for months, and Tim took care of him until he was fully conscious, even offering his own medication in an attempt to speed up Jay's recovery.
Once Jay was conscious, however, he was more suspicious than thankful.
Tim, meanwhile, tried to set Jay up with an appointment with his doctor, since even outside of the immediate effects of the Operator's attack, Jay was showing evidence that he was starting to hallucinate (even if Jay himself denied it).
Things came to a head when the two went back to Tim's house to find Alex (who had broken into Tim's house and had been living in his attic) and a mysterious tape (which a shadowy, masked figure had pointed out in a video they posted to Jay's channel).
When they arrived, there was no Alex and no tape...until Jay noticed the outline of the tape in Tim's pocket. Jay, furious that Tim had lied to him, wrestled the tape away from Tim and ran off.
Jay took to Twitter, asking whether or not he should watch the tape. Disregarding his viewers' suggestions, he watched it, only to find that it contained evidence that Tim's alternate personality was to blame for Jessica's disappearance (and possible death).
Jay, deeply shaken by this, went alone to Rosswood Park, the place where Jessica was last seen in the tape. From here, things started to go deeply, deeply wrong. The layout of the park ceased to be familiar; landmarks showed up in the wrong order, and Jay was unable to differentiate between what he was seeing and what he was hallucinating.
Jay pulled out his phone and called Tim.
Unfortunately, he was sent to voicemail.
Still, he apologized, saying that he realized why Tim kept the tape a secret from him, explaining his mistake in coming to Rosswood, admitting that he'd been seeing things that weren't there, and saying that he'd like to start working together again.
Then, Jay Merrick collapsed into a seizure, the Operator watching overhead.
Then, Jay Merrick forgot his fear, forgot his apology, forgot his desire to make amends with Tim, forgot that he concluded they would be safer working together. Then, Jay Merrick went after Tim with a knife. Then, Jay Merrick was gunned down in cold blood by Alex Kralie and died alone.
But that's something this Jay wouldn't know anything about.
Personality:
Jay has an awful lot going on for a guy who seems to want to be perceived as a walking tripod.
On the positive side, he's intensely determined; from the first day he starts going through the tapes right up until his death, he gives up his entire life for the investigation. It consumes him completely. He lives on the road, sleeping in motels and in the back of his car, and he doesn't appear to interact with anybody except to further the investigation. Jay also seems to have a careful eye for details; he's able to pick out single-frame oddities in weeks of footage, and even back in 2006, he was a script supervisor, meaning he was in charge of the movie's continuity. Jay genuinely seems to want to help people, too; at least on the surface, the reason for the investigation isn't just to satisfy his own curiosity. It's to find the people who went missing.
On the negative side, Jay is terrible at self-preservation. He wanders into danger at every step of the investigation, scratching at bloodstains with his bare hand, letting a man he knows is dangerous lead him into the woods, and following suspicious strangers into abandoned buildings and underground tunnels. Even his real-life actor has called him a "bad detective". Jay is also deeply socially awkward and a terrible liar; nearly every character he talks to over the course of the series immediately acts wary of his motives. This interacts badly with his tendency to be deeply defensive; anything that calls into question his motives, his abilities, or his sanity is immediately met with verbal barbs and excuses. He refuses to acknowledge evidence of his declining mental health right up until the end, even as he's starting to hallucinate. He's wary of other people to the point of paranoia; everyone he meets is treated with suspicion by default, and any perceived slip-up just further convinces him that nobody can be trusted. He also seems deeply self-destructive; he perceives his old life as "living in a crappy apartment by [him]self, doing nothing,", and he explicitly says he considers a life on the run from a murderer and an eldritch horror to be "doing something". He acts like a man who has nothing to go back to, and from his perspective, that seems to be true.
On top of it all, Jay is shockingly private for a man willing to post his real-time location on the internet. His writing is terse, stilted, and professional, even as he stutters over in-person conversations. He may mention his feelings to his viewers now and again, but it's often presented as just another piece of evidence. Also, given that he's the editor of most of the series, the viewers only get to see what Jay wants them to see; it doesn't seem to be a coincidence that we almost never see Jay's face.
(A note about Jay's health: As much as he wouldn't like to admit it, Jay suffers from what the fandom has nicknamed "Operator sickness" or "Slendersickness". He's shown experiencing coughing fits, high fevers, intense anxiety (sometimes resulting in violence against perceived threats), sleepwalking, and (as much as he denies it) hallucinations. He also experiences at least two seizures over the course of the series, though the only seizures he has on-camera happen when the Operator is explicitly nearby.)
Abilities:
Jay has little to nothing in the way of supernatural powers, though his exposure to the Operator may have made him capable of causing mild audio-video distortion in recordings.
Jay has extensive experience with video editing and the logistics of running a public YouTube channel and Twitter account. He has some knowledge of video archiving/preservation, though the full extent of his experience in this area is unclear.
In a more practical sense, Jay is an experienced codebreaker. He's also very good at noticing small visual details; much of his investigation required him to comb through months of meaningless footage to find clues.
As far as fight-or-flight goes, he's definitely more in favor of running than fighting, but he has been able to successfully fend off an attacker at least once when armed with a blunt object.
He's also decent at living under sub-optimal conditions. He hasn't had a home in four years, and the only time food is mentioned in the series, it's in reference to gas station snacks.
Inventory:
- Handheld camcorder
- 2-3 unopened MiniDV tapes (enough to fit in a pocket)
- Folding pocket knife
- Flashlight
- Wallet containing driver's license (expiration date 2012), credit card, and roughly $60 in $20 bills and $15 in smaller bills/change
- Clothes (lightweight hoodie, red shirt, jeans, belt, leather sneakers)
Sample
Q&A: I would like to do a Q&A for my sample, please!
What’s more important: the way others see you, or the way you see yourself?
(CW: self-harm mention)
Jay wrinkles his nose.
"What? I mean..." He looks down, picking at his sleeve. Think. Not for too long, though, or it'll be weird. "Other people, I guess. 'Cause, I...I mean, if other people think you're some kind of, I dunno, serial killer or something, they might..."
Jay shakes his head.
"Bad example. Like, if you hate yourself or whatever the only person you gotta worry about is yourself. If other people hate you, that's more dangerous, probably. So other people."
Describe your greatest achievement.
This is beginning to feel unsettlingly like a job interview. He's never been good at job interviews.
"My, uh. My YouTube channel, probably." He ducks his head. Who says that? "Like, it's not--I mean, not the channel itself, but what's on it. I found this, this stuff going on, this...mystery, I guess you could say, and I didn't have anything going on, so I started...cataloging evidence, doing investigation, that kind of stuff. And I haven't, like, solved anything, exactly, but it's...more than I've ever really done before. If that makes sense."
Is it difficult for you to trust others? If so, why?
Jay snorts. "Yes."
A pause.
"Oh, why? Uh." He glances over his shoulder, eyes flaring. "Well, the last guy I trusted pulled a gun on me, so there's that." He starts to speak faster, visibly agitated. "Then, the next guy I guess I sorta-trusted lied to me about the whole point of what we were doing, so."
He'd planned to end it there, but the guilt gnaws at him until he keeps going. The indignant fury in his voice peters out.
"I guess there was...like he did it for a reason, but he still didn't have to...Like, he could've just told me."
Do you have any spiritual or religious beliefs? If so, what are they?
"Christian, I guess. Haven't been to a service in..." Since the last time he went home to his parents' place for Christmas, whenever that was. Years, definitely, though he's fuzzy on how many. "A while. And I don't exactly...I'm not sure if any of it's..."
He jolts.
"Wait, why're you asking?"
If you were to die tomorrow, how would you distribute your belongings?
Shit, he's dead, isn't he? It makes sense. It makes so much goddamn sense. Why else would they be asking all these questions?
If he'd figured this out sooner, he'd have changed his previous answer.
"I don't exactly have all that many belongings, but, uh." He's fidgeting now. He needs to stop fidgeting. If he's being cosmically judged, he definitely needs to stop fidgeting. Liars fidget. "The footage goes to...Tim, I guess. Like, all the tapes and my hard drives. And the password to my accounts, but I think he's already got that. Or--wait, if anything goes, then maybe it could all get dumped in a public Dropbox or something so everybody can go through it, see if there's anything I missed."
He pauses.
"Or, or maybe not...that. I don't know, I--Sure. Tim gets the channel and the Twitter, but all the raw footage gets put up somewhere else. And I guess he gets the camera, too, since his GoPro is...like, the fish-eye's useful for some things, but the footage'll be better to look at if he's got a real camera. Beyond that, it's just...clothes, so either he gets those too, or you can donate 'em. Same with the knife, I guess."
It is at this moment that Jay remembers his savings account.
"Right, and, uh....money goes to my mom and dad."
What’s your opinion on your circle of friends?
"Depends on how you define friends, I guess. One of them tried to kill me, so he's...he might not count." Jay squints, thinking. He hasn't exactly had anything he could call friends since college. "There's Seth, but he's...not sure if he's still around. Same with Brian. Probably the same with Sarah, but her I'm not so sure about."
Jay stares at the floor.
"And there's Tim, but he's...I dunno. He's an asshole, I guess."
He winces. The Pearly Gates probably aren't too fond of cursing.
Do you consider yourself to be special in any way? If so, how?
"I...what?" He shoots the formless question-asker a look. "No."
Jay continues, shaking his head. "I'm just...like, I'm not...I don't have any special skills or whatever you're asking about. The only job I had before I went on the road was, like, some lousy stockroom job, and I got fired from that, so. No."
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Character Information
Name: Jay Merrick
Series: Marble Hornets
Appearance: He doesn't appear on camera often, but when he does, he looks like this.
Jay Merrick is a pale, scrawny guy on the tall end of five-foot-something. He walks with the slight stoop and the dark eye-bags of a man who has spent the better part of the past four years hunched over his laptop, squinting at blurry camcorder footage instead of getting a decent night's rest.
On the topic of the camcorder, it's practically glued to his hand. Jay tries to record everything he sees, regardless of convenience or common decency.
He speaks with an audible Alabama drawl; his accent may not be thick, but it's definitely there.
His body language isn't necessarily what you'd expect from a man who's spent the past four years fearing for his life; the arm that isn't busy carrying the camera hangs loose at his side, and his eyes don't always focus on what's in front of him. However, Jay is tightly wound; he's constantly looking over his shoulder, and when he's not stumbling over his words, his speech is clipped, like he's talking through a clenched jaw.
Jay dresses for comfort, and it's unlikely he's gotten any new clothes since his apartment burned down three years prior (save for anything he managed to steal from Tim Wright's luggage when they briefly worked together). He favors a thin, moth-eaten brown hoodie and a worn cadet cap, and he tends to dress in warm colors - reds and browns, mostly.
Age: 27-28
Canon Point: The footage uncovered from Jay's computer in Entry #82
Canon History: Jay's page on the Marble Hornets wiki
Jay is the point-of-view character of Marble Hornets, though it could be argued that he's not necessarily the protagonist.
Back in the summer of 2006, he worked as the script supervisor for his friend Alex Kralie's incompetent but well-meaning student film. Unfortunately, progress on this incompetent but well-meaning student film was interrupted by the Operator, a faceless eldritch horror in a shape roughly approximating a very tall businessman. By the end of that summer, Alex Kralie announced his decision to quit the project and transfer to another school, and Jay offered to take the tapes.
Jay's memories of the Operator had been erased.
Alex had murdered half the cast. The other half he had tried to murder.
Jay didn't remember that part, either.
Three years later, Jay started looking through the old tapes, and he realized two things: he hadn't heard from Alex Kralie since 2006, and there was a strange man in the background of some of the shots.
He did what any reasonable person would do and asked the SomethingAwful forums if they wanted to see any of the footage.
From there, he created a YouTube account to archive any unusual footage he saw, as well as a Twitter account to communicate with his viewers, and his investigation of the old tapes quickly turned into an investigation of the Operator and Alex Kralie's disappearance.
He tracked Alex to his friend's abandoned house, but all he found was evidence that somebody had been living in the closet, some surreal, incomprehensible architecture, and the Operator. He woke up in his car the next morning, the previous day's memories wiped, presumably due to his exposure to the Operator. All he had was the footage on the camera.
He kept recording. He didn't want to forget anything else.
Not long after, his apartment burned down, and he was forced to start living in hotels and out of his car.
The Operator then erased another seven months of his memory, during which he met up with Alex, inadvertently led him to another witness, and nearly got both himself and the other witness killed when Alex pulled a gun on them both.
Fortunately, he had the camera, so he could watch the missing months second-hand.
Unfortunately, he and the other witness, Jessica, were attacked shortly afterward. Jay managed to escape, but Jessica went missing.
In his attempts to find her, Jay found Tim Wright instead, another former cast member of Alex Kralie's student film. After a rocky start--i.e. Jay lying to Tim about the real purpose of his investigation and Tim giving Jay a black eye--the two joined forces to track down Alex and Jessica.
It turned out that Tim knew more about the Operator than he let on; he had been stalked and tormented by it since he was a child, and he blamed himself for inadvertently introducing it to his friends back in 2006. Jay stuck around, and the two started hotel-hopping as they continued the investigation.
They managed to break into Alex's old house, and while they didn't find much evidence, they did find the Operator. Tim managed to withstand the Operator's attack, but Jay wasn't so lucky; he was "out of it" for months, and Tim took care of him until he was fully conscious, even offering his own medication in an attempt to speed up Jay's recovery.
Once Jay was conscious, however, he was more suspicious than thankful.
Tim, meanwhile, tried to set Jay up with an appointment with his doctor, since even outside of the immediate effects of the Operator's attack, Jay was showing evidence that he was starting to hallucinate (even if Jay himself denied it).
Things came to a head when the two went back to Tim's house to find Alex (who had broken into Tim's house and had been living in his attic) and a mysterious tape (which a shadowy, masked figure had pointed out in a video they posted to Jay's channel).
When they arrived, there was no Alex and no tape...until Jay noticed the outline of the tape in Tim's pocket. Jay, furious that Tim had lied to him, wrestled the tape away from Tim and ran off.
Jay took to Twitter, asking whether or not he should watch the tape. Disregarding his viewers' suggestions, he watched it, only to find that it contained evidence that Tim's alternate personality was to blame for Jessica's disappearance (and possible death).
Jay, deeply shaken by this, went alone to Rosswood Park, the place where Jessica was last seen in the tape. From here, things started to go deeply, deeply wrong. The layout of the park ceased to be familiar; landmarks showed up in the wrong order, and Jay was unable to differentiate between what he was seeing and what he was hallucinating.
Jay pulled out his phone and called Tim.
Unfortunately, he was sent to voicemail.
Still, he apologized, saying that he realized why Tim kept the tape a secret from him, explaining his mistake in coming to Rosswood, admitting that he'd been seeing things that weren't there, and saying that he'd like to start working together again.
Then, Jay Merrick collapsed into a seizure, the Operator watching overhead.
But that's something this Jay wouldn't know anything about.
Personality:
Jay has an awful lot going on for a guy who seems to want to be perceived as a walking tripod.
On the positive side, he's intensely determined; from the first day he starts going through the tapes right up until his death, he gives up his entire life for the investigation. It consumes him completely. He lives on the road, sleeping in motels and in the back of his car, and he doesn't appear to interact with anybody except to further the investigation. Jay also seems to have a careful eye for details; he's able to pick out single-frame oddities in weeks of footage, and even back in 2006, he was a script supervisor, meaning he was in charge of the movie's continuity. Jay genuinely seems to want to help people, too; at least on the surface, the reason for the investigation isn't just to satisfy his own curiosity. It's to find the people who went missing.
On the negative side, Jay is terrible at self-preservation. He wanders into danger at every step of the investigation, scratching at bloodstains with his bare hand, letting a man he knows is dangerous lead him into the woods, and following suspicious strangers into abandoned buildings and underground tunnels. Even his real-life actor has called him a "bad detective". Jay is also deeply socially awkward and a terrible liar; nearly every character he talks to over the course of the series immediately acts wary of his motives. This interacts badly with his tendency to be deeply defensive; anything that calls into question his motives, his abilities, or his sanity is immediately met with verbal barbs and excuses. He refuses to acknowledge evidence of his declining mental health right up until the end, even as he's starting to hallucinate. He's wary of other people to the point of paranoia; everyone he meets is treated with suspicion by default, and any perceived slip-up just further convinces him that nobody can be trusted. He also seems deeply self-destructive; he perceives his old life as "living in a crappy apartment by [him]self, doing nothing,", and he explicitly says he considers a life on the run from a murderer and an eldritch horror to be "doing something". He acts like a man who has nothing to go back to, and from his perspective, that seems to be true.
On top of it all, Jay is shockingly private for a man willing to post his real-time location on the internet. His writing is terse, stilted, and professional, even as he stutters over in-person conversations. He may mention his feelings to his viewers now and again, but it's often presented as just another piece of evidence. Also, given that he's the editor of most of the series, the viewers only get to see what Jay wants them to see; it doesn't seem to be a coincidence that we almost never see Jay's face.
(A note about Jay's health: As much as he wouldn't like to admit it, Jay suffers from what the fandom has nicknamed "Operator sickness" or "Slendersickness". He's shown experiencing coughing fits, high fevers, intense anxiety (sometimes resulting in violence against perceived threats), sleepwalking, and (as much as he denies it) hallucinations. He also experiences at least two seizures over the course of the series, though the only seizures he has on-camera happen when the Operator is explicitly nearby.)
Abilities:
Jay has little to nothing in the way of supernatural powers, though his exposure to the Operator may have made him capable of causing mild audio-video distortion in recordings.
Jay has extensive experience with video editing and the logistics of running a public YouTube channel and Twitter account. He has some knowledge of video archiving/preservation, though the full extent of his experience in this area is unclear.
In a more practical sense, Jay is an experienced codebreaker. He's also very good at noticing small visual details; much of his investigation required him to comb through months of meaningless footage to find clues.
As far as fight-or-flight goes, he's definitely more in favor of running than fighting, but he has been able to successfully fend off an attacker at least once when armed with a blunt object.
He's also decent at living under sub-optimal conditions. He hasn't had a home in four years, and the only time food is mentioned in the series, it's in reference to gas station snacks.
Inventory:
- Handheld camcorder
- 2-3 unopened MiniDV tapes (enough to fit in a pocket)
- Folding pocket knife
- Flashlight
- Wallet containing driver's license (expiration date 2012), credit card, and roughly $60 in $20 bills and $15 in smaller bills/change
- Clothes (lightweight hoodie, red shirt, jeans, belt, leather sneakers)
Sample
Q&A: I would like to do a Q&A for my sample, please!
What’s more important: the way others see you, or the way you see yourself?
(CW: self-harm mention)
Jay wrinkles his nose.
"What? I mean..." He looks down, picking at his sleeve. Think. Not for too long, though, or it'll be weird. "Other people, I guess. 'Cause, I...I mean, if other people think you're some kind of, I dunno, serial killer or something, they might..."
Jay shakes his head.
"Bad example. Like, if you hate yourself or whatever the only person you gotta worry about is yourself. If other people hate you, that's more dangerous, probably. So other people."
Describe your greatest achievement.
This is beginning to feel unsettlingly like a job interview. He's never been good at job interviews.
"My, uh. My YouTube channel, probably." He ducks his head. Who says that? "Like, it's not--I mean, not the channel itself, but what's on it. I found this, this stuff going on, this...mystery, I guess you could say, and I didn't have anything going on, so I started...cataloging evidence, doing investigation, that kind of stuff. And I haven't, like, solved anything, exactly, but it's...more than I've ever really done before. If that makes sense."
Is it difficult for you to trust others? If so, why?
Jay snorts. "Yes."
A pause.
"Oh, why? Uh." He glances over his shoulder, eyes flaring. "Well, the last guy I trusted pulled a gun on me, so there's that." He starts to speak faster, visibly agitated. "Then, the next guy I guess I sorta-trusted lied to me about the whole point of what we were doing, so."
He'd planned to end it there, but the guilt gnaws at him until he keeps going. The indignant fury in his voice peters out.
"I guess there was...like he did it for a reason, but he still didn't have to...Like, he could've just told me."
Do you have any spiritual or religious beliefs? If so, what are they?
"Christian, I guess. Haven't been to a service in..." Since the last time he went home to his parents' place for Christmas, whenever that was. Years, definitely, though he's fuzzy on how many. "A while. And I don't exactly...I'm not sure if any of it's..."
He jolts.
"Wait, why're you asking?"
If you were to die tomorrow, how would you distribute your belongings?
Shit, he's dead, isn't he? It makes sense. It makes so much goddamn sense. Why else would they be asking all these questions?
If he'd figured this out sooner, he'd have changed his previous answer.
"I don't exactly have all that many belongings, but, uh." He's fidgeting now. He needs to stop fidgeting. If he's being cosmically judged, he definitely needs to stop fidgeting. Liars fidget. "The footage goes to...Tim, I guess. Like, all the tapes and my hard drives. And the password to my accounts, but I think he's already got that. Or--wait, if anything goes, then maybe it could all get dumped in a public Dropbox or something so everybody can go through it, see if there's anything I missed."
He pauses.
"Or, or maybe not...that. I don't know, I--Sure. Tim gets the channel and the Twitter, but all the raw footage gets put up somewhere else. And I guess he gets the camera, too, since his GoPro is...like, the fish-eye's useful for some things, but the footage'll be better to look at if he's got a real camera. Beyond that, it's just...clothes, so either he gets those too, or you can donate 'em. Same with the knife, I guess."
It is at this moment that Jay remembers his savings account.
"Right, and, uh....money goes to my mom and dad."
What’s your opinion on your circle of friends?
"Depends on how you define friends, I guess. One of them tried to kill me, so he's...he might not count." Jay squints, thinking. He hasn't exactly had anything he could call friends since college. "There's Seth, but he's...not sure if he's still around. Same with Brian. Probably the same with Sarah, but her I'm not so sure about."
Jay stares at the floor.
"And there's Tim, but he's...I dunno. He's an asshole, I guess."
He winces. The Pearly Gates probably aren't too fond of cursing.
Do you consider yourself to be special in any way? If so, how?
"I...what?" He shoots the formless question-asker a look. "No."
Jay continues, shaking his head. "I'm just...like, I'm not...I don't have any special skills or whatever you're asking about. The only job I had before I went on the road was, like, some lousy stockroom job, and I got fired from that, so. No."